October 17th . 2007 .
Ernest Hemingway is one of my favorite writers all time , He has a story called Old Man and The Sea , It's about struggling and fight ! I think i should always keep that spirit up , I should always have that kind " fight until the end " attitude . But when i get weak and hangover , How can i fight ? How can i work hard ? How can i be the MAN ?!
I think it's time for me to say goodbye to alcohols , Becuase i want to fight , I want to become the better man , I don't want to feel sorry for myself anymore .
Sigh , If i want to understand life , i need to look back , But if i want to keep living , I have to look forward to the life !
October 16th
Thoughts of Mine
I think spread the love is the only way to make a man happy ! It really doesn't matter how much money you make , How many covers of magazines you are on , How many fans you have , How many beautiful girls you have sex with , Those things are worthless . Life is not about enjoy happiness , Life is about dealing with all problems .
Life is just like a fancy Chinese dinner , You have spicy food ,salty food , Juicy Foods , bitter food , sweet foods , good foods, sucksass goods , shitty foods , wonderful foods on the table ,You have to try everything , And then you can decide what is yourfavorite food .
But even though you love eat Sweet food , If you eat sweet foodseveryday , in the end you will get sick of those stuffs .
I think i should just live everyday and solve different problemsevery day , It's much better than dead inside or do nothing in a day.
Dragon flys in the place where above the sky , Eagle flys in the sky ,Bird flys under the sky , Chicken can never fly but make noise all thetime , I think i want to be the dragon , I want to fly in the universe, But i don't make noise , as long as i make noise , it's going to beshake the whole earth move ! I might never become the dragon , Butthat's what i believe in from the day one .
My goal is too high , I might never achieve my goal in my life , Buti have my goal , That's what i am going to pursue in my life , Mygoal might be give lots of hard time and troubles to me , But that'smy goal !
October 14th
THIS IS THE TAO ! 4 HOURS FLY TO MONTREAL .24 HOURS BACK TO VANCOUVER by Train !
Nobody feel 100% safe when they are on airplane , But it's so fast to get there , But on the way to Montreal , The plane was shaking a lot , Everytime when the plane shakes , You feel scared and freaking out .
And 4 hours is too short , You don't feel a thing ! The view was boring too , All you can see is Cloud , It's nice at first, But after a while , It's just bored . And then you arrived Montreal , You started feel bored too , Becuase you know " OH , THIS IS THE MONTREAL ! "
But when you take Train back to Vanvoucer , It takes 24 hours , it's a long ride , But it's nice , And you feel very safe , But you are so tired . But You can see different views thought the window , You also can think a lot when you are in the long ride .
I think this is just like a career . Fast is not really safe , and even you get there , you will get bored fast , And you also don't have time thinking and you don't have time see different things when you on fast speed .And too many UPS AND DOWNS also drive you crazy !
October 12
We are back from Montreal now , It was an amazing trip , But right now i am much more excited about AL D TV is going to interview ARCH ENEMY !!!!!
I have been listening to Arch Enemy since i was 19 years old , I remember when i was study in English second language school , I locked myself in my bedroom listen to Arch Enemy's albums , But my father thought i was read my textbooks to get ready for mid-exam . I wasn't a good student back to those days , Becuase i really obsessed with music .
I have been a huge fan of Arch Enemy for 6 years ! I saw them open for Cradle Of filth in 2003 , I saw them co-headlining tour with Chimaira in 2006 , And i met them twice , I also interviewed Michael once , Those moments were Amazing !
I really respect and love Arch Enemy , Becuase they are doing good art , The art that can live forever , The art can impact people's soul and mind . I call it real art , I think once the real art caughts you , And then it will live inside of you , become a part of you !
I don't know why i just watched Forrest Gump again for the 8 times , But this movie still makes me cry , In Forrest 's life , He only loved one women called Jenny , The conversation between he and Jenny were so touching , He asked " Will you marry me? I'd make a good husband, Jenny, " Jenny said " You would, Forrest. " He replyed " But you won't marry me. " And then Jenny said " You don't wanna marry me. " and then He asked " Why don't you love me ? I am not a smart man , but i know what love is ." and then after they make love , Jen left , But he still thought about Jen all the time , in the end they married , But Jen passed away ,and then Forrest visit her tomb , He said " You died on a Saturday morning. And I had you placed here under our tree. And I had that house of your father's bulldozed to the ground. Momma always said dyin' was a part of life. I sure wish it wasn't. Little Forrest, he's doing just fine. About to start school again soon. I make his breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day. I make sure he combs his hair and brushes his teeth every day. Teaching him how to play ping-pong. He's really good. We fish a lot. And every night, we read a book. He's so smart, Jenny. You'd be so proud of him. I am. He, uh, wrote a letter, and he says I can't read it. I'm not supposed to, so I'll just leave it here for you. Jenny, I don't know if Momma was right or if, if it's Lieutenant Dan. I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time. I miss you, Jenny. If there's anything you need, I won't be far away." So touching .
I really think Love is so important in my life , I am a big fan of love , I am so sad the fact most of girls which i loved are not fans of love . I think they have their worlds , But I live in my world , So let me just chill out to enjoy my life .
I am glad finally i made choice , I am going to move back to my family for a while , Finally i made the decision . I am glad that i made the decision .
August 15 . 2007
I loved someone for a while , I used to want see her every day , I never get enough with her , It's like i just hang out with her for for half day , after she 's gone , And then i began to miss her again . That was happened like few months ago .
But few days ago , I don't even want to talk with her anymore , I don't even want to see her face for a sec . It's not ike I hate her . i don't hate her . She is a great lady as i always say , She was my soulmate , She knows every single thing about me , She took care of me very much .
But now We just lost the vibe . Even thought i tried to get all the pieces together , but the picture just shatters ! I think that was the last time we say goodbye . I hope i will never see her again in my life .
I mean it . Say "Goodbye " should means " goodbye " !
Last couple of times , If i pushed her away from my life is becuase i was scared . This time i finally push her away from my mind by my heart !
I know sometimes i might still think of her , I am sure i still will think of her sometimes , But it's just no future for this love story anymore . It's gonna be end like this way .
Love is greatest beauty . Joni Mitchell , i agree with you , Love suffers all the pains ? Joni Mitchell , Are you really sure about that ???!!!
Even though my personal life is still kind of messed up , But my career is pretty good lately , I am in the music magazines , Online culture magazines and did talk show with CBC radio one . And in addition to that , I also received a personal email from Randy from Lamb of God !
I mean , Am i in my fucking dream ? It's unreal for me to received an personal email from Randy , I used to wait in the lineup for hours to get his autograph for my Lamb of god Cds !
I feel so grateful that He loved the interview , He called me Most Honorable and Awesome Al , He told me that he represend and fully back AL D TV -world to the motherfucker , He will beat up anyone that says otherwise !
He also asked me that he wants an AL Di TV t-shirt; if i don't have them , He will have to make his own .
Randy 's email really warmed my heart , I will save this email forever , Becuase his email will always cheer me up in the future !
Randy is the dude fucking dude who in the poster of my wall !!!!! Now he is fully support AL D TV ???!!!!! I mean , It's time for me to rock more harder !
Randy is one of my lifesavers as well from now on !
Thank you Brian , Maria and Ed from Adrenaline PR , AL D TV nothing but love Adrenaline PR as well and as always .
June 07 . 2007 .
I love The Deftones! I have been their fan for about 8 years and I think Deftones' music is the best medicine for me. ( The smashing Pumpking 's music also saved my life ). Chino ( Vocal ) is a half Chinese and half Mexican dude. He rules. I interviewed him for Rolling Stone ( Chinese edition ) last year, and before that i also interviewed Stephen (the guitarist ) but that interview was not a very good one, due to my lack of preparation and research on Stephen. After i interviewed Stephen, I met the rest of members from Deftones and they are all good people and nice guys. The bassist Chi Cheng is also a Chinese guy who speaks perfect Cantonese. The same day i saw them live, they totally kicked my ass! Chino's voice is just unbeliavable, I just can't find the words to describe how awesome his voice is. All i can say is superb killer !
I think life is pretty harsh and extremely lonely sometimes, but i don't want to end of my life , because there is always hope. So instead of kill myself and being depression i just listen to Deftones' music. Their music made me feel like a man !! I can imagine i can do everything when i listen to Deftones' music. Chino's lyrics are extremely beautiful and romantic and sometimes twisted.
Read some his lyrics like " 'Cause you're my girl and that's all right If you sting me, I wont mind " from RX Queen . . " And the waves suck you in and you drown. If you should sink down beneath...I'll swim down. Would you?Is that what you want? " from Cherry Waves" , it's just amazing lyrics ....Those lyrics are so fit in my life !!!!!!
Especial the song " When girls telephone boys " is a extremely fucking pissed off song. When i listen to this song,, I just hate my pre-lover so much. " But don't speak , don't say nothing , In case we ever do meet again . Somethings's wrong with you . Well I hope we never do meet again ". Fuck, i don't want to ever meet her again . I am so angry now . Deftones ' music is just a volcano of madness. That's why i love Deftones' everytime i feel so relief after i enjoy their music !
Deftones is coming to Vancouver in July and they will play 2 shows in here. I hope Chino can spend 20 mintues of his life to do my interview for AL D TV. I can giveaway one day of my life to the death god for obtain this interview . Yes . I love Deftones !
May 22nd . Tuesday . 2007 .
When i just started to listen The bird and the bee , I didn't really pay attention to her looking , Becuase i don't usually pay attention to musicians' looking . but from the moment i met Inara , My heart was melt . She is much prettier in reality than her image in music video and magazines .
She is one of the sweetest musicians i ever met , I adore her voice . and i also adore her looking , I adore her dressing as well . yes , I adore her songwriting skill and her poetic lyrics ...... Anyway . I just heart her !
Her music get me through a lot of heartbroken time , ( When i was in an obsession with a girl , I keep pushed her away from my life over and over again . Becuase i was scared to get hurt . Anyway It was a sad story ) . The bird and the bee's song " I am a broken heart " made me so fucking BROKEN HEART !
Right now , I am thinking about that girl doesn't broken my heart , The song doesn't broken my heart , It's me broken my heart , Becuase it's so cool to be a brokenheart person . So i can play the depress card all the time , I can get all the attention . I can collect all sadness and sentimenal elements in my arts ...........
http://www.myspace.com/thebirdandthebee is her band 's myspace link . Greg ( the bird and the bee ) is a super handsome dude , he is also one of the best dude i ever met in my life so far , I respect him from my bottom of heart .
http://www.myspace.com/inarageorge is her solo project's myspace link . check the song called fools work . so fucking goddamn beautiful !
I also had the most heartwarming time at The bird and the bee's show . Becuase that girl was there with me . That was the only fun night i had with her . the rest of moments of us are all tragedies . I am so happy i am moving on now .
"Life can be hard , But it can be good to me ....." Inaga was right !!
life is also so fucking harsh . that's why i highly recommend you to watch AL D TV from now on . becuase watch AL D TV , You will be fine ! Sincerely
May 19th . 2007 . Saturday .
A few days ago , I was watching an interview about Conan O'Brien , Cocan ----such superb killer funny guy told to his audiences that in the initial period when he does his tv show , He also in depression a lot , he wasn't too confident about the thing he was pursuing at that moment , But one day he realized one thing that is he has no time for depression , so he kept himselves very busy . so he has no time to enjoy the depression anymore , The faith of him was SOMEBODY HAS TO DO IT , somebody has to do his show .
After i listened what he said to me , haha . I was like " That's the spirit , Man . Somebody has to do it " . Sometimes i am thinking too much , I should learn from him . and in the meanwhile i should also remember the classic line from movie Caddyshack " There's a force in the universe that makes things happen. And all you have to do is get in touch with it, stop thinking, let things happen, and be the ball. " So from now on , I will stop thinking too much , And just work hard . let things happen to AL D TV . After James Brown is gone. Hopefully , I will be the hardest working man in the show business .
I wasn't happy these days , my heart is still feel little bit sad for a sentimental reason , Becuase i realized one thing that is i am still love a lady who i thought i don't love her anymore . But truth to be told , i still love her . I did lots of crazy things when i with her , You think i am crazy and change like wind , But in fact , it's becuase of she drives me crazy . she call it madness . i call it love !
There are tons of girls in the world . but when i find out i am really love her . which made me believe there was a last life before this life .
becuase why i love her ? nobody forces me to love her .Now i know . The reason i love her is not becuase she is pretty cute and funny .
the main reason i love her is becuase she is just an amazing girl . she captured my lost heart . she made me want to work super hard . she made me want to achieve everything . she made me got my passion back for everything . she made me feel this world is not dangerous anymore . she made me feel like sun still exist in the sky .
she made me want to kick somebody's ass . she made me become emotional . she made me want to talk again . she made me want to lose weight . she made me want to take care of myself .
everytime when i see her and look at her in the picture . I want to laugh or cry ..........
She is the best !
I love her when she has makeup on her face . I also love her when she has no makeup on her face . becuase she is just pretty all the time .
Sunday . May 13th . 2007 .
I was watching "million dollar baby" in the afternoon . i think this is one of the best movies i ever seen in my life . And it's very good timing for me to watch this movie as well , Becuase there is a line in the movie was " people die everyday , mopping floors and washing dishes . and you know what their last thought is ? " i never got my shot " . I think even AL D TV ( The best show you ever seen ) is a new baby in this entertainment scene . Nobody knows what the fuck is AL D TV at this moment . We under lots of huge pressures everyday to do this show , But i and Colin never lose our hearts , We always cheer each other's up and Stay thinking positive . keep hard working ........
Maggie Fitzgerald ( The girl in million dollar baby ) was untrained boxer when she was already 31 years old , She worked at a small restrauant in her past and sometimes steal left over foods from the customer of restaurant . she is so poor , but she never give up her dream to be a professional boxer player . And in the beginning , Clint Eastwood doesn't want to trained her . but her passion melted Clint 's steel heart .......
I think in comparison to Maggie , Colin and i are much lucky than her . haha . I am 25 years old dude , I've already had my little achievement in journalism scene , Colin is 28 years old , he also has his decent achievement in Indie movie scene all we need is work hard to make things happen from now on .
www.aldtv.com which debuted on May 1st , But we got lots of amazing bands to do out interviews . From Sam Roberts . Hot Hot Heat . Black Rebel Motorcycle Club . Marion Raven to Strapping Young Lad . they all come to the show to do our favors . Lots of my friends who work for labels .managements and pr compaines also helped us a lot . AL D TV won't have today without all those friends' help . especially Torquil Campbell is our hero . He lighten up the AL D TV 's bright future !!
I hope people will enjoy the show , And speak to i and colin , we will keep our faith to do AL D TV , We will rest when we dead !
Al
